haven't much felt like posting. it's this cycle of not wanting to post, feeling guilty for not posting, and then posting lame ass stuff because you have no inspiration for good stuff.

i have a huge backlog of photos that need to be uploaded to google and that just ain't happening anytime soon. this little laptop of mine is driving me crazy and i covet the new imac like crazy. but even if i could afford to breath near the apple store i still wouldn't want to get it until october when leopard comes out. i mean, who's going to buy anything now when the updated operating system (which looks so cool) is just about here.

and the housing search isn't going particularly well. i looked at some places, and one was amazing and huge and bright and clean. they gave the room to a friend and i swear, every other apartment i've looked at is dark, dingy and dirty.

ash's roommate christina wants me to move in there. share a room with ash. which i could do, we might even not kill each other but the roommate drama at that apartment is kind of crazy and the kitchen space is super limited and there's an electric range. i mean, who can live with an electric range. the biggest selling point is no deposit. i could just move in. and this would be great because i is poor. i am just pulling myself out of the hole i was in and this whole moving thing doesn't help anything.

what i need to do is get a weekend job. or some sort of events thing. or freelance. what i need are some marketable skills. and let's be honest, this pretty face isn't going to get me anywhere. especially since it gets fatter by the day.

yeah, i need to work on that too.

seeing more rooms this week. ash and her roommates talk about the idea of me moving in tomorrow. and if they say yes then i'll do that. i mean, no deposit is no deposit.